For the optimists; this is actually a very positive post. If you want to skip past the gloom and doom in the beginning, just scroll down to…
Sometimes the world is a little too beautiful, and it gets overwhelming.
Sometimes we’re scared of things that overwhelm us, because we don’t understand them.
Sometimes, when we don’t understand something and we’re scared of it, we try to find the ugliness in it to justify our fear.
Sometimes, when we think something is ugly, we start to hate it.
Sometimes, when we hate something, it’s because we see a part of ourselves in it that we don’t like.
I’ve hated the world over the past week. I finally had a break in all the hard work that I’ve been putting into music, enough to lift my head and look around… I didn’t like what I saw.
I saw all the ugliness in the world that I’d forgotten about.
I saw all the obstacles that stood in the way of all the good I’m trying to do.
I saw all my weaknesses.
It was silly to let myself slip into this mindset, but I did. I’ve worked really hard over the past year on developing a steady, positive outlook on life. With a lot of hard work, I’ve managed to stay really happy and positive, but I just let it slip for the past week.
Thankfully, I took another look around:
I saw all the beauty in the world that I’d forgotten about.
I saw all the friends that have been helping me, and are ready to help even more.
I saw all my strengths.
I would love to say that all of this came from my own inner strength, but it didn’t. It came from people who